I hate it.
Today is a little taste of what's to come - it has been cloudy all day, the sun hasn't cast a shadow since it was first rising this morning. I feel spacey and lethargic, and like I can't quite remember who I am, how I muster energy to hang with the kids all day, get through meetings, socialize.
I know it will pass, it always does. I also know that this is the first winter since I moved away from sunny North Carolina in 1999 that I will try and get through it without adding to the numbness it creates in me with food.
Don't feel too bad for me - I've planned some strategic get aways including a week in Mexico as well as a long weekend in San Diego, visits from out of town guests, and a fantastic group of friends who remind me that if I can actually get my ass out of the house I enjoy myself.
Nonetheless - this stillness that I feel today in my head... not a good, zen still but a dull still, like all my thoughts and energy are being held down by a big grey could in my head that will not lift or burn off....